Happy Halloween

Only 2 days late..  =/

Happy Halloween.. I love Halloween, it kicks off Fall for us in Az.  Its the start of many holidays, many firsts to come and many fun memories to be made.
For Halloween this year we decided to go hang out with friends and there little ones. So T would have a partner in crime to Trick r Treat with. They had a blast and M just kinda hung out..

Tristan wanted to be Green Lantern and  I found a Superman outfit just small enough to fit M. So both of boys were Super Heroes.

Before we left to go Trick R Treating, I decided to try and do a small photo shoot with the boys. It actually went better than expected.  Take a look.  =)

Happy New Year's!!

Yesterday was my Dad's B-day.. He is 59 years old. So crazy to think he's been gone for 5 years!!  Almost 6 years come this April.  I miss him like crazy- for some reason I have been more emotional that usual and stop right there I AM NOT PREGNANT!!!   No way- No How, I am making 100%  sure that does not happen!! At least not until after my cruise. mmm kay..
Anyway - like I said I really do miss him. Maybe it also has to do with the fact that this year we have lost quite a few people in our lives.  For One we lost Jacob, i posted about this. I think about him everyday- (I'm a song person, so certain songs always stick out more when I think of people) does that make sense? Are you like that?  Like for Example; the Song by The Fray - "Never Say Never", Yay That song somehow brings tears to my eyes, not as bad as it used to when I would hear it. Actually the day I heard them sing it in church thats when I think my tears became less- weird.. We also lost a really good woman to Cancer, (FECK CANCER)!!!  Anyway - I didn't know her very well, I only got to meet her I think 2-3 times. but the mark she left on me is undeniable. She was only 58 and her poor body was consumed by cancer. :(
Not only did we lose her to cancer we also lost my Sister N' Laws Mother to Cancer, This woman was a fighter she fought breast cancer twice and went through remission twice, this last time the cancer come back and it came back strong. She fought her hardest though, but that DAMN cancer took her.   So F*ck Cancer!!!
Back to my songs.. I think it was like a week before Christmas and I was driving home. Thinking about things and what I needed to do, Carrie Underwoods new song came on, "Temporary Home", Of course the first part is about a little boy which automatically makes me think of Jacob, the 2nd verse really didn't have any meaning towards me but the Last - Ugh, the last verse had me in sobs.. :( 
Read on.....

Old man, hospital bed

The room is filled with people he loves

And he whispers don't cry for me
I'll see you all someday

He looks up and says "I can see God's face"

This is my temporary Home

It's not where I belong

Windows and rooms that I'm passin' through

This was just a stop,on the way To where I'm going

I'm not afraid because I know this was

My temporary home."

This is our temporary home

So yea, I am definitely a song person, and this song definitely got me!!   I feel like this song is so true, and I choose to believe this!   I'm so sad that My Dad, My SIL's Mom, Yvonne and Jacob were taken so soon, but I know they are HOME, They are happy and I know my Dad is with me every single day. It really just takes me thinking of him, for all the memories to come swooshing back in, like the way he smelled, the way he giggled(more like a chuckle) the chicken pecking of his fingers on the computer because his fingers were to fat and he couldn't see the letters so he had to do it one at a time, the way he would look up from his chair with this smurk of, What do you want now?   My Dad was definitely a great man and I wish Tristan had the chance to meet him. One day he will, but for now I will make sure he knows him through me and pictures!! 

Happy Birthday Daddy-O

This totally wasn't meant to be a sad post- its the New Year!! Time for New Things and New Memories. I just needed to reflect on that.

Next post will be uppity!!  ooo  Guess what...  I finally got my ass to the gym today!! (can I get a hoo haaa)  I did 35 minutes of cardio- I need to get back into it for sure - I have lost my mojo. haha  I plan to go the rest of the weekend and take Monday off then head in Tues and do some strength training.  So here we go!!!  :0)   you want another downer, not for you but for me.. I gained 7 effin lbs people!!  Feckin Holidays!! Oiiii.. I lost my self control... Never again..

I hope you had a great New Years, and I hope you have a great Year ahead!!! 

~~**Merry Christmas~~**

Merry Christmas ALL!!!   I wanted to pop on really quick before we take off for the day of festivities.  T had such a good Christmas, Santa (Mommy and Daddy) were sure good to T..  He has so many toys to play with he's not sure which ones to play with or give attn to first. Its quite funny.  He still really doesn't understand whats going on, he just knows there's toys and they are all for him.
Santa was pretty awesome to me as well.  John spoiled me pretty good this year. I am truly blessed to have such a wonderful husband.
He got me a Diamond Heart Necklace - he stuffed it in the tree for me to find. So cute and I love it!!   I got clothes, some stuff from Victoria's Secret, and  I got what I asked for. My 10.5 Digital Picture frame its pretty awesome better than the one I had in mind, it has a MP3 player to play music as your pictures go through the slideshows, you can set your slideshows to specific songs. So neat. He also got me the digital editing software I have been wanting. I can not wait to start giving myself a tan!! haha No really I can't wait to start editing my pictures. :0)
All in all Christmas has been AWESOME!! Even better because I have 2 boys that I love dearly and I wouldn't want it any other way. 

MERRY CHRISTMAS 

 to you and yours!!!

*Reason's Why I LOVE Fall*

*Candy Corn,  Oh YUM!!!!

*It's Mid 80's and feels like heaven

*I don't sweat my ass off trying to get T in his carseat in the MORNING

*mmmm Pumpkin Cream Cheese Muffins from Starbucks- great for you diet  ;)

* Actually being able to drink my Hot White Chocolate Mocha and not break out in a sweat, since ya know its 100+ degrees 7 months out of the year.

*Going to the Dunes

*Bustin out the hoodies and cute boots

*Goin for Walks with T either in his wagon or the stroller

*Did I mention not sweating my Ass off?

*Keeping the windows and doors open

*Turning my A/C off  - Yea for catching up on our outragoeus aps bill!!  Woot woot

*Going Pumpkin Picking

*Carving Pumpkins
*Seems people are nicer when it cools off? NO?  Maybe thats just me  haha
*Halloween Costumes
*All the outdoor festivities that go on

Sheesh  I could go on forever-  I just love fall.. Its such a great season and since we live in Arizona we only get two season.  Feckin HOT and  Somewhat cooled off..  Which I happen to have a love hate relationship with. 
:0)
whats your favorite things about fall??

~Happy Father's Day~

~Happy 1st Father's Day John - We love you~

A man's desire for a son is usually nothing but the wish to
duplicate himself in order that such a remarkable pattern may not be lost to the
world.

by: Helen Rowland

Happy 1st Father's Day to my amazing, wonderful, handsome, sometimes a pain in my ass, incredible husband!! John is truly an amazing husband and above all an incredible father. For someone who never thought that he would have kids, let alone really didn't even want kids- he is by far the best daddy he can be to Tristan. It's s fun to see them two together and interact. He loves that little boy more than words can say. I can't wait -well no I can - but it will be nice to see them when Tristan gets older and can enjoy the things his father is into - the rail the rhino and dunning. The lake and boats and jet ski's , taking apart perfectly good vehicles and turning them into show vehicles - wreaking havoc in the garage to all hours of the night.. I am truly looking forward to those times!! Can't wait.. heehee (notice some sarcasm in there - just a little)

No but really I'm excited to see them to grow together and build that father son relationship John really never had with his father..

Not to mention - John has even mentioned having another one.. WOOOHOOOOO... Two is were the train stops though.. :0)

Happy Father's Day to my Dad as well.. I miss him everyday and more and more on days like these.. My Dad was an amazing Father - He would have given anything to have his family happy and made sure we were all takin care of.. He sure spoiled his little girl.. :0) No complaints here.. =)~ I love you Dad and miss you.. Happy Father's Day!!

Any man can be a father. It takes someone special to be a dad.
~Author Unknown

Picked a Theme

FINALLY - for Tristan's 1st Birthday Party on July 11th. - Good lord it took me forever to decide.. I'm not sure why. Anyway - I think its cute and perfect for a little boy on his 1st birthday.. (sorry the pic is so small but the larger one wouldn't allow me to C&P)

Now I have to get moving on buying all of the decorations and get the invites out.. There is going to be a lot of people at this shin dig- I'm excited to be celebrating his 1 st birthday! To Tristan he will have no idea as to what is going on but, I want to make sure he will be able to look back at pictures and know that every birthday even his 1st is so important to us!!

I also put together a "wish list" on Toys R Us.. Which is freakin cool!! I think that is so awesome and the fact that they have things like that makes things so much easier for those people who have no idea what to get a 1 year old- especially those who don't have kids.. Its like a registry but for your birthday.. and because I know Tristan and what he likes its easier for me to just get on there and pick things that will be educational yet fun.. . So it works out perfectly. Not to mention its super easy for his out of town relatives to go on there as well, order it and have it shipped directly to us.. Simple and easy!!

I am going to be having it at my Mom's house since 1. she has a BIG house to fit all the people that will be there. 2. We are having it as a swim party and what do ya know she has a Pool!!

So I'm off to go order this stuff up and get things ready for my Baby's 1st Birthday!! (AHHHHHH I can't believe in a month and a half, Tristan will be ONE) C.R.A.Z.Y.

Could he get any freakin cuter!!??

(did you notice my picture taken skills are starting to show?)

Happy New Year!!

Here's to new Beginnings, and a New year ahead of me and my family!!

2008 was a great year I will admit - We welcomed our Son into this world and it made us two a Family.. I will forever cherish 2008 for that reason. Other than that 2008 was a tough year, economically, physcically, and emotionally not just for me but for so many. I mean seriously 2008 will be looked back on as the wierdest year ever!! Gas was above 4 dollars a gallon and shoot diesel was almost 5 bucks a gallon!! RIDICULOUS. Now gas is the lowest its been in 5 years ranging from $1.53 - $1.43. A black man was voted President and a woman was running for President as well. Stocks fell 700 points in one day, the lowest its fallen since the attack on th U.S. in 2001.

2009 I hope, be the beginning of things looking up and the come back of economy although many say that will take at least until 2010, but I can Hope, Right?! Thats all I have right now is hope and that what I'm stickin to.. I have some good things going on in 2009 that I am looking forward to..

I will be getting married FINALLY after 3 years of being engaged and having our baby, it's time for John to sign his life away tooo ME!! hahah I'm just kidding. It seems like it has taken forever to get to this point but now I'm wishing I had some more time to be prepared!! Not happening - I have less than 3 months until I walk down the aisle. I'm hoping that I can go back to school this year to go after my dream of being a RN in Labor & Delivery, this has always been what I wanted to do with my life but fell off course and I have nobody to blame but myself. So its going to be a little harder this time around trying to get my ass back in gear to get to school, with having a baby and adult responsiblities on my plate. I'm sure I can do it and I know John will support me. :0)

John and I are also hoping to take a few trips this year with just the 3 of us and also just the two of us. We are hoping to go to Colorado 2 times this year, a trip to Cali, and possibly plan a trip for a cruise. We will see though, We have a lot going on at home so it should be interesting.

I have some New Year's Resolutions:

*Lose about 25lbs 15 of that needs to be before my Wedding. Since I have already lost a total 53lbs including the baby weight I gained!! Go ME!!

* Go back to school

*Not complain so much, (I've been pretty negative lately)

* I want to run the 2010 PF changs marathon 1/2 is my goal but the full would be awesome!

*Plan the best 1st B-day party ever for Tristan!!

Man.. I had a lot more than this and now I can't think. I'm super tired so I will get back to this

**I was supposed to post pics of T on Christmas day etc.. I forgot, well I have some (well Alot of new pics) so here are some for viewing pleasure.. Man, He is just so cute and of course this is my biased opinion because he is my Son but I just love him so much I could squeeze his little cheeks and cuddle with him ALL DAY!! :0)

It's Christmas time...

YAY!!! I love Christmas time. even with this shitty economy I'm trying to look past that and keep with the "Holiday Cheer", so time for a face lift!! You like?

Anyway - I started Christmas shopping on Black Friday, OMG was that HELL haha - Trying to get anything done with baby in tow, is a little hard!! To say the least though - we had a good time. I got some shopping done. More for me than any one else.. hahah.

I also went today and got Tristan's Christmas photos done and for some reason when its time to perform for the camera he gets a little shy.. meaning no smiles and looks of "what are you doing"? and "Why is everyone yelling at me to smile"? So here are some photos from today.

We were also supposed to go to Glendale Glitters in Downtown Glendale. We did not make it there on Friday night. I was pretty bummed and I blame this on my friend who flaked on me!! (Jerk) - So I told John we are going to go next week since he is at the Dunes this weekend. Its back to work on Monday after my wonderful and chill 4 days off.. :(

Oh and I tried to decorate but that's alittle hard to do when your Fiance's project truck and sand rail are unmovable with out "Manly" help to get them outta the way, to get up in the attic.. I was looking forward to getting all my Christmas decorations down, turn on some holiday music and jam out with Tristan to Christmas Carols. Oh Well - this will be our project next weekend!! Thats my update!!

And I leave you with my love bug.. He is just so cute (yes its my biased opinion) but I could eat him up!!

Happy Decorating and Christmas Cheer!!

Happy Turkey Day!!

Okay so I'm one day late but I was exhasted yesterday after cooking my first turkey, stuffing and making yummy sides.. So you will have to give me a break..

~~So normally we go to my Moms for Thanksgiving hence I don't have to cook the turkey or do any of the leg work. Well not this year.. This year was ALOT different.. Sad kinda just because none of my family wanted to spend it together. I guess when you work with your ENTIRE family 340 -352 days out of the year.. you kinda need that break away.. So whatever me and John have our own family now and made the best of it.. My Mom was supposed to go out of town as well but ended up not going so she came with us to John's cousins house. It was a quit Thanksgiving dinner with just Johns Cousin Desiree, Daniel, Me, John, Me, T, Johns Dad and my Mom.. So.. on to my Turkey expierence!!

So on Sat- I went and got a fresh organic turkey form Trader Joe's, and I looked up recipes to cook an old fashioned turkey.. Well I came up with nothing that looked intresting , but John did. So with recipe in hand I was good to go to make my FIRST turkey and stuffing..

~ Thursday Morning I woke up- excited to start this process, wondering mmm will it turn out, am I gonna fuck this dinner up?? Well here are the results my ladies or well whoever reads this.. My turkey was "THE BOMB",, Oh yes it was!!!

John tried to take credit for all my hard work.. I dont think so buddy!! This was all my turkey and it turned out GREAT!! It was so moist and juicy and I couldn'y have done a better job if someone asked me to!! haha.. Yep I'm giving props to myself!!

Now, I credit the fact that my turkey was so moist and juicy in part to it being organic and fresh.. My Mom always buys butterballs that are frozen and yes those are great too (who can complain about a Moms cooking? NOT me) but I loved the fact that my turkey was fresh!!

So I did make stuffing too and yea that didnt turn out so well!! I will admit it, it was actually really gross but, in my defense I just followed the recipe and it was just BLEH!!

So on another note it was Tristan's 1st Thanksgiving and it was OUR first Thanksgiving as a family!! So I had to take a pic.. So excuse my look but I was sweating all day in the kitchen and running around - so I made the best of it.. haha

and I couldn't resist these pics of Daddy and T playing on the floor together.. John doesnt get to spend as much time with T as I know he would like so it was nice to see him have his time with him..

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!

Today is my Birthday!!

Holy cow I'm 26 years old today.. Just blows my mind how fast time goes by.. I totally remember being like 10 and saying to my Mom I can't wait until I'm 18 cause then I can do whatever I want, and then I was 18!! WHOA and then I was 21 and was out partying, drinking, having the time of my life. Now I'm 26 - getting married in March and we were alittle ahead of the game and I have a baby boy that I couldn't see my life with out!! Before I know it Tristan will be 1 and I will sit there and wonder where the time went.. Sad really.. It's sad because people including myself just dont take time for themsleves, to really soak it up and live in the moment instead its a GO GO GO world.. I really need to learn to STOP and just live it up for just a second even a minute, It won't kill me to do so.. and yet I tell myself this pretty much all the time even before I had Tristan and look he's already 3 1/2 months old and for the life of me I wish I would of soaked up his littleness a little longer.. on the other hand I love that he is growing and making me and John grow as well. I think we learn from him, funny how a 3 1/2 month old can teach you things without even knowing it.. It may not be obvious but one thing is for sure, Tristan has began to teach me to slow down, take him in, take John in, take my life in, take family and friends in and really be HAPPY!!
So Happy Birthday to me!! I will soak this day up and take some pics so I can have some memories that I dont have of all the other b-days that just passed me by as if they were just another day!! :0)

**So My B-day plans: Tonight John is taking me out to Dinner not sure where yet.
Then tomorrow: We are going out to dinner with my family and then after my sister is going to take the baby and John and I are going to go out with friends and celebrate my b-day with some drinking and some fun!! I'm pretty excited.. haha I havent been out in awhile.. :0)
and Sunday - I plan on just relaxing maybe go to the park with Tristan and just chill.