Tommorrow is the DAY!!!

Oh yea.. Its D- Day... Diet Day that is.. So I have had this date set in my head for over a month as to when I was going to start this diet .. and it's here!! So I went grocery shopping and I made a list of everything I need.. Healthy stuff of course.. Man I was so tempted to buy those dang Chips ahoy - they were calling my name from like 3 ailses away.. :( I could have cried.. but I by- passed them and said NO!! Wedding dress - wedding dress.. I've already started walking with John and started Jogging alittle - but I need to get back into it big time.. When I was running last year i lost abt 10lbs in one month not to mention I was eating healthy.. So I know I can do it.. I'm gonna do it!!! I;m nursing baby T as well so thats gotta help me out some too!! and maybe with me eating better foods his Acid reflux will go away!! I hope so I hate that he spits up so much.. Poor thing..

Anyway - I'm actually excited that I'm starting my diet tomorrow..

So here we goooo.... weeeee...

I will update on weight lost each month and my progress... Wish me luck!!!

Wedding - Wedding - Wedding

Oh Man.. My Wedding is less than 7 months away and I am officially freaking out..
Lets see here -- I could of swore I was more prepared and i probably am but reality has really set in and the fact that my wedding is coming up so fast it's freaking me out.. I feel as though I didn't get anything done.. but you see I have - Why cant I see that??

Lets go down the list and check it twice, shall we..

I have:
My Colors - Browns, Pinks, Greens, and Black
My Dj -Like him alot!!!
My Florist - Calla Lillies and Carnations
I have my BEAUTIFUL Dress
my Make up Artist - Ambie - Love her
I have my Hair Stylist - Christine
Soon to have my Officiant - Jerry Law
My Cake - Love them - Yum CAKE!!
My Favors - Candy Buffet Cant wait to see this set up I need to order something for them to put them in
I have my Photogragher - Shelly Ivy ( thank you Kim) LOVE love Her
My save the dates - going out in Sept.

So it seems as though I have alot done. but uh.. lets go over the list of things I don't have done.

Linens
invitations
Menus, Programs etc.. (all paper products)
CATERER ( this is huge and I haven't even went and did tastings yet.. AHHHHH)
Centerpieces
Accessories for my dress, need to get my veil re- done, shoes
The girls need to order there BM's Dresses
John still hasn't picked his Men ( are you serious)???
He needs to go get tuxes or at least pick what he likes and wants
My Mom needs to find her dress
We need to get a little tux for Tristan
We still need to get Rings
Haven't picked a Honey Moon destination ( My Mom is supposed to be working on her Timeshare info and she hasn't ahhhhh)
the biggest one of all LOSING THIS BABY WEIGHT that I have gained!! umm yea abt 40 lbs needs to go bye - bye so I can look smokin hot in my dress.. Oh shit!! time is ticking Jenni get with it!!
narrow down our guest list.. We are at 150 we need to be at 100!!! YIKES

uhh what else -- I'm sure I'm missing the rest of the list and I'm sure there's about 50 more things that need to be added.. :(

I'm at a loss for words at this moment.. I will be back..

My first outing by myself..

Proved itself to be so HARD!!!

When you have an infant who is 5 weeks old and you have a Travel Stroller to work with when heading out and about Oh Man.. Nobody ever tells you how hard it is to get in and out of your vehicle, in and out of stores, around the stores- in between clothing racks, and how rude people can truly be(not holding doors open for you etc.)..
So when I got home from what was supposed to be like an hour outing -turned 5 hours (well since I was out I went to a few more stores then noted). I went on a search for something more econmical for myself until Tristan is able to sit up on his own and actually use the travel stroller we recieved at my baby shower. I went to Amazon.com and looked up Strollers and I came across the Graco Snugrider infant carseat frame. FREAKIN FABULOUS!! I read the reviews. Nothing but great things said, the looks of it are awesome and it looks like it could be something I need!!! Well I cant wait - so I went to babies R us to see how much of a cost diiference it would be.. and amazon was basically the same price as babies r us plus shipping.. Babies R us would be cheaper.. Anyway - I'm going tomorrow to go get this sucker!!
Take a look... http://www.toysrus.com/product/index.jsp?productId=2266236

I'm Excited.. This should make my outings go much easier, I hope.. Check back and I will give my review of this once I try it!! YAY I'm excited.. I thought I was doomed everytime we went out.. Not ANYMORE!!!

Where has the time gone?? Seriously

Its been 5 weeks since my maternity leave, isnt that just crazy!! I feel like it was just yesterday that I was being induced and having Baby T.. Now its 5 weeks later and he's getting so big..
I enjoy everyday of being home and seeing him grow and become my little boy.. He coos and makes little noises that just make me light up and giggle.. haha who knew I could giggle when no one was around.. but its fun.. He's learning to smile at me and he's learning my face. He stares at me and follows me with his cute little brown eyes- when John gets home from work - John will speak to him from afar and Tristan will immediatly start looking around~ looking for his Daddy's voice.. He's learning everyday and I love it!! It's sad to think that in 3 weeks I will have to return to work.. Fortunatly, I get to take him with me - but it wont be the same as having him at home all to myself.. I love that I get to take him with me (shoot I wonder if I'm going to get any work done).
Its funny to think, the first week I was home with him - I was like " I need to go back to work" I hated being home, but now that I've gotten used to it, I want to stay home.. Now I know why Most moms end up quitting there jobs to stay home with there kids.. I love it!! I love being with him, I love not missing ONE moment of his life..

Tristan's ONE Month check up

Went good!! He's 10lbs 10 oz and 22 1/2 in long.. He's in the 75% percentile for his age which is really good.. :0) He's a very alert baby and makes full eye contact.. he's been cooing and making noise ( I call it talking to me) haha.. Which he does alot of.. So cute..
He has a mild case of acid reflux so I was given meds and I hope this helps with his spitting up.. :) I'm still nursing him and that seems to be going good. I will probably nurse him until he's about 3 months but I've been considering doing until he's 6 months. Just because breast milk is so much better for them and there health.. so we will play it by ear..
Other than that he's doing great..
* I go in for my 6 week check up in 2 weeks and i'm so ready to get released to start working out (hard) and getting my ass back in shape and lose this weight!!!

Tristan is 1 month old today!!

Well if you go by the weekly count!! I guess technically it could be either way.. August 9th would be his one month as well..

So I took some pics- of him so we can go back and compare each month - He's already getting so big from being little bitty.. he's grown an inch and wieghs ALOT more.. not sure how much. I go in for his 1 month check up on Monday!! So I will update then . I need to upload them.. but I'm off to go take a nap while Tristan is sleeping..so stand by.. :0)

Baby Love Session 2

Tristan's Newborn Photo Shoot..
I just recieved the slideshow of some images that were taken by Shelly with Ivy Studios.. When I started the slide show I started crying - I'm not sure why. Maybe because he's just so cute!! haha.. I dont know I'm thinking I'm still dealing with postpartum baby blues.. but seeing his pics is just so amazing.. I brought this life into this world!! John and I created this little person and its just so cool!!
Anyway - Here's his slide show..
http://www.ivystudiosphoto.com/hahnbabylove2/

Enjoy!!! :0)

How amazing is this

Look at Tristans 4D Ultrasound picture and then look at his picture now..

I cant believe how right on the 4D ultrasound is.. Technology is just so cool!!!

So now that I'm home... I've been thinking

I'm going insane!!! we can back up again.. to when we actually got to come home with the baby.. Sat July 12th.. Weee.... we are heading home!! but then again I was sad to go.. WHY??
I don't know probably postpartum blues.. I was seriously sad to leave maybe it was more because I was scared that we were actually leaving the comforts of the hospital and that no more nurses would be around to poke and prod me and well help me with breast feeding Tristan or there to ask questions as soon as I had them.. Maybe it was the good company they had brought.. I mean all of my nurses that I had were awesome!! Especially two of them.. or the mere fact that WOW - Tristan is ours and he HAS to come home with us.. I think reality hit at that moment.. and so did the tears.. hahah

but I have been home with Tristan for three weeks and I seem to be adjusting greatly, but being home has lead me to rethink my life.. So after the first week, of being emotional and wanting John not to go back to work- I have come out of it. (somewhat) I still get a little emotional. But they say that's normal.. (I hope so)

so anyway - on to the part where I have begun to rethink my life and what I (Jenni) wants to do with it!!
For those that don't know me well enough - I have ALWAYS wanted to be a nurse (a labor and delivery, or post partum nurse) since I was little!! When I was little I called it a baby nurse haha.
So after being in the hospital with Tristan- my mind started rolling and I started getting that itch again..
Like I had said in my previous post - I stopped going to college to work for my family full time after my dad passed away.. I truthfully and hole heartily regret this decision.. when I was attending college - I really wasn't in the right frame of mind and was not into college so much.. this I regret as well.. but now.. I'm ready.. I really do feel like I'm ready to go back to college and pursue what makes me happy and what makes me tick.. I truly feel like I will be happy in the nursing Field... So I have made it my goal to start looking into going back to school.. But not to just community college.. I was thinking more of a school that specializes in just nursing programs.. I have looked into a few and I need to take that actual next step and get the info.. My goal is to start going back to school after my wedding in March of 09.. with a new baby and wedding coming up - I think going back to school would be way to much stuff on my plate for one to handle.. not to mention working.. So next year is when I will start!!! and I'm going to DO IT this time!! This is what I want to do- so I'm gonna do it!!

Birth Story- Let's Back up!!!

Lets back up alittle since I was gone from blogging for awhile.

Lets start with:  July 8th -

 I went into the gyno to get checked.. I'm 39 weeks pregnant at this point and VERY ready for this baby to come out.. I have been swelling the last few months and the last few checkups my blood pressure has been elevated.. Yea so I'm pretty much DONE!! I have explained this to the Dr. quite a few times.. So I went in and they checked me - NADA I haven't changed since the last check, so they decided to give me a folley catheter which is a balloon that gets put into your cervix to make you dilate.. (NOT a fun experience) but hey anything to get this labor started right??

WRONG!! I was also told that I would get a call from the hospital after midnight for a time I would need to get there to start the induction process.     Now I'm nervous

After that appt. I went home  and I began cramping pretty good - having some contractions and HOLY SHIT I was probably going to have a baby tomorrow.. Suddenly I got scared, anxious and EXCITED!!!

I tried getting some rest by laying on the couch and watching T.V. but it just seemed like my cramping was getting worse. I decided ok I can't laye here anymore and got up to get Mmy bags packed, baby's bag was packed, car seat was ready to go, and get ready for this phone call.. The nurse at my OB's never gave us an exact time, just that they would call sometime after midnight and to leave my phone on and be available.

John and I hung out did some last minute cleaning, phone calls and made sure we were both ready for the phone call. I think we headed to bed around 10. I finally passed out around 11- 1130 and woke up to
My cell phone going off - and I answer frantically and its the nurse from the hospital:

N. Hi is this Jenni?

J. Yes

N. This is so and so from the SHC - We wanted to let you know to go ahead and head down to the hospital.. How fast can get you get here?

J. umm (stuttering) uh like 45 min..

N. Great we will see ya then..

J.. Okay uh bye..

I hang up and think HOLY crap this is happening this wasn't a dream. I  looked at the clock thinking it was maybe 4-5 am.. Its 12:15. WOW I thought.. I need to get up and I just fell asleep.. Dang it!!
Oh Well., I got up - jumped in the shower and John got the dogs ready for our departure and loaded up the truck..

1245am~ We are on our way to the hospital.. Silence and radio was it for the car ride,  I think because we were both nervous and actually scared that this was actually going to happen!!!  I think we might have had two or three words come out of our mouth's.. but the rest of the drive - nothing..

1;15 am ~ we get there and they take me to Triage - a little room with a hospital bed and a little recliner for John to sit in.. Didn't look to comfy.. They made me change into my gown and hooked me up to all the monitors, they put the IV in to start my induction and on we go..

 1:30am  the pitocin is flowing.. So the nurse tells me you have awhile before you will be put into L&D - so try to get some sleep and rest up.. OKIE DOKIE!!!

 WE tried.. John fell asleep for a little while, but I could not.. I just kept thinking about the fact that this was happening, this was really happening. We are going to be parents!!  Pretty surreal.. The rest of the night/ early morning I tried getting rest, but was going nuts. The traige room was so small with no windows. 

 Noon.. They finally came in and told me I would be moved to L&D and that my Dr would be in to break my water to get things moving!!! YAY!!!

12;30pm I get moved to L&D -- Luggage and all. Wow what a difference  - I was beginning to feel like there was no light outside being in that little triage room..  Our birthing suite is pretty sweet! Its nice and big, has a fridge, nice T.V. DVD player for Movies a rocking chair and WINDOWS to the outside world..Much BETTER

   1245ish my Dr came in and broke my water, checked me and I had progressed to 4 cm.. WOOHOO things are moving right along. and with the Dr. breaking my water things should start moving faster.Or so we hoped

2-3pm My Dr came in to check me and I had dilated to a 5 cm..and she said we should be seeing a baby between 8 pm and midnight if I keep progressing!! WOOHOO making some progress and still feeling good no need for an epidural yet.. but man I'm hungry!! So John went and got me Lollipops,.. the only thing that I could actually have besides ice chips and water..

5:45pm~ Nurse comes in and checks me and I'm still 5 cm.. :( Not happy about this and well my contractions started getting more intense at this point my nurse asked if I would like my Epi.. I say Yes.. and the anesthesiologist comes in and gives me the best medicine EVER!!! Time to relax and hope this labor progresses.

Midnight~ (Wednesday) - They have been checking me and checking me and NOTHING No progress- no changes.. I am not very happy about this and I'm starting to get annoyed, I'm borderline exhausted.  At this point I was advised to try and get some sleep.. So I did..Well at least I tried. My Mom and my sister were still at the hospital hoping that T would make his appearance soon.

3-4 am~ I woke up to the worst pain I have ever felt in my life (my Epidural was wearing off) so with my breathing methods John and I had learned in our classes, John came over to me and said breath Jenni, I began to huff and puff.. and as John and my Mom watched my contraction sub side John asked if I was okay.. I said I can feel that.. and with that said another contraction came and once again John leaned into my face and said breath Jenni.. (I wanted to DIE) -- So I called the nurse.. and she came in and I told her what I was feeling - she checked my epi and and gave me another shot of it.. That was short lived as I was feeling every contraction maybe not to the intensity it was on the monitor but it was still insanely painful..
Maybe I have a low pain threshold - but whatever - you try having contractions!!
~thank goodness John was there and remembered our class of breathing because he walked me through each one.. :)
At this point - I'm DONE I have been in labor since 1:30 am Tuesday morning and it is now Wednesday morning and I still have not progressed - Tristan had dropped into my pelvis and was ready but when I was last checked at abt 4 am he had moved back up and I was still at 5 cm.

I don't like to say that I had given up - but in a sense I kinda had.. I was so exhausted and tired from being in labor- being up on the high of actually having a baby and him actually getting here - that my body just kinda shut down and told me no more..
So when the nurse came in she could see it in my face that I was done.. She asked what I wanted to do and I said I don't know- I just want him out.. she came back about 20 min later and said.. the Dr. wants to do a C-section - She's on her way here and your scheduled for 6 am..
 Thats when I actually felt like I had given up and I had failed!!!
I started crying quitely-

After that was said: the next hour is a whirlwind
5am everything moved soooooo fast - I cant even explain to you how fast it moved..I felt like I could have been in a dream.  I was given medicine for nausae, they gave me another shot of my epidural which made me super numb from my chest down and the shakes began..GOD I hate the shakes!!!  4 nurses came in and off I rolled to the OR.. they gave my family the run down and John his bunny suit.
Only John was allowed into the room .. So my Mom was asked to wait in our Postpartum room..

5:45am ~They rolled me into the OR and moved me onto the table - and well most of this is a blur. The only thing I remember was shaking so uncontrollably.. I hated it!! They kept saying its normal.. UGH!! I kept telling myself.. to STOP, JUST STOP and I couldn't!!
Finally they let John in and he looked so funny in his little bunny suit, hat and mask..I wish they would of taken a pic of just that.. too cute..
They gave him a seat to sit ny my head and he grabbed my hand. My Dr asked if I was okay and if I was ready to have this baby?   YES maam

(please do not take or steal my pictures, these are sololy mine)

-                                                        At 6:28 a.m. Tristan Marcus Trevino made his arrival into the world - Pretty exciting!! Welcome to the world Tristan, he weighed 7lbs 12oz and measured 21 in long.. So that's my birth story. Not quite the way I had imagined it or had wanted it to happen, but hey I have a beautiful baby boy and at this point that's all that counts!! My baby Tristan is my love bug and I actually can't believe he is here..

After 30 hours of labor, I looked and felt like I was ran over buy a frieght train! I was in the hospital longer than I had wanted to be. I ended up having a blood transfusion because I lost quite a bit of blood with my c-section and my iron levels were extremely low. I was poked so many times by so many different nurses. Two of the nurses blew two of my viens and finally they called an anestheseoloigist to put in a IV line. It was not a fun expierence AT ALL!!  I was pretty happy to head home Saturday morning after T's circumision.